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"I never was the best to you"

This line serves as a haunting refrain, emphasizing her acknowledgment of failure and the emotional distance that defined their relationship.

"I destroyed every silver lining you had"

Here, Abrams conveys the depth of her regret, illustrating how her actions overshadowed any positive moments, leaving lasting scars.

"You fell hard, I thought, "Good riddance""

This reflects a moment of cruel detachment, revealing her initial relief at the end of the relationship, which contrasts sharply with her later remorse.

"Used to lie to your face"

This admission highlights her dishonesty, suggesting a pattern of avoidance that ultimately led to the relationship's downfall.

"I was so negligent"

Abrams takes responsibility for her actions, indicating a painful self-awareness that fuels her emotional turmoil throughout the song.

"Now I feel terrible ' bout how I handled it"

This line captures her regret, marking a turning point where she confronts the emotional damage caused by her behavior.

"You're the worst of my crimes"

This metaphor elevates her emotional pain, suggesting that the hurt inflicted on her partner is the most significant wrongdoing in her life.

"I never was, I never was"

The repetition reinforces her feelings of inadequacy, making her regret feel even more profound and inescapable.

"Angry, blocking me over the internet"

This line illustrates the tangible consequences of her actions, emphasizing the emotional distance that has now become permanent.

"But I deserve it though, I deserve it though"

In this moment of acceptance, she acknowledges her punishment, revealing a complex blend of guilt and self-punishment.